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You are viewing the most recent 20 entries November 16th, 200812:38 pm: 34 weeks 5 days Pregnant
I haven't posted in so damn long I have no idea what I've left out. We've decided on a name - Kyrie Belle Valentine.
Why have we decided on these names? Kyrie - It's different, I know no little girl with this name and because Kingdom Hearts is one of my favorite video games. Belle - We didn't know this at the time of picking it out but I just found out it was my late great-grandmother's middle name. We intentionally picked it before because it's pretty and goes along great with Kyrie. Valentine - Duur, it's my husband's last name and my son's last name. This pregnancy has been horrible on me. I've been congested with the worst sinus's ever. I'm a snot fountain, coughing like a whooper AND exhausted from the get go. Thank goodness it's almost over! Only 2 weeks and a few days until I'm full term which is when I had Zai so I'm hoping she comes around the first week of December for me. I'd hate to be pregnant any longer but I know it'd be worth it when she is out and healthy. Zai is getting excited. He knows to be easy around my bulging belly and he knows who 'sissy' is. He knows he's not allowed into sissy's room because she won't be allowed in his and so on. He doesn't like it that there are 'big boy' presents in sissy's room for someone, though. He knows those toys aren't sissy's. We're attempting to tell him those are Santa's but he just doesn't understand why he can't have them now. He's peeked many times on those presents and I have to keep hiding them but the kid is way too smart! It snowed here today! Our first snow but nothing is sticking so nothing will be left behind. Atleast Zai got to see it fall. I have a new dog! His name is Parker Drake and he's a purebred Longhair Doxie whom is the sweetest pup ever. But, he does have more balls than my pussy-fied dalmation. Parker and Zai have a love hate relationship, it's hilarious. I'm not addicted to Twilight. I finished the first book but I'm waiting for the library to have the second book so I can read that one. I actually bought the first book so I didn't have to wait then. Now, on to my much bigger worry -
Anyone else feel they are completely unprepared for baby? I never went through this with Zai because I was so young, I had just turned 17. I keep thinking I don't have enough clothing for her. Then I have to look into her closet and her TWO dressers just to make sure. After doing that I fear I have TOO many clothes and she'll never wear any of them and I wasted my money on them. Then we move on to diapers and wipes. How do I know if I have enough? See, I'm freaking out and I'm not even close to having this little girl yet. I asked DH if he felt he was ready and he told me honestly, "No." I asked him why and he said what I'd been feeling, "What if we don't have everything we need? It's almost December, Wes and we have Christmas to get and things to do. What if we're broke and need something drastic?" I'm scared I'm not prepared. Just wait, in a few weeks I'll look back on this and wonder, "Why the hell did I post that?" Because, I'll have her and know everything is just fine and I have everything I need. It's been almost four years, I don't know what to expect anymore! Freaking out - Over....I wrote that on my Tossed Turkies thread. It's like a birth board and I've grown really close to those ladies there. Nothing else to write. Other than, my little boy doesn't want to be my little boy anymore. He's so independent and it's sad because Kyrie is probably my last child. I can't go through the heartbreak of having twins again and having one taken from me. It's really sad he's growing up. Funny thing is - Zai and Josh fight over the xbox elite like two little kids. Josh claims it's always his turn while Zai is playing and vice versa for Zai. It's adorable at first but then annoying when they look at me to solve their problems. Uhh... He's a kid, Joshua. Let him play the damn game with you. You started him on this. I don't feel like shelling out another half a grand on another xbox just for Zailor. Can't they just share it? Current Mood:  restless Current Music: Saving Abel - Addicted July 23rd, 200802:27 pm: Ultrasound Again!
So, my baby is very healthy. I had a mass in there with the baby indicating the others that were once with him/her. I'm not sad one bit. God must not have wanted those babies on Earth and I'm alright with that. So I go there all by myself due to Josh having the work nightshift and wanting to sleep and be with Zai. Zai stayed with daddy because he wouldn't have behaved there for two hours.
I get into the ultrasound room and I'm uber excited! I mean, I could have thrown up so excited! Everything is fine with the baby. Healthy weighing in at around 8oz when he/she is only supposed to be around 5 oz's right now. As I type this I'm feeling little kicks to my lower abdomen, it's adorable. I just called Zai over to feel but his brother/sister stopped kicking. Already a little tyrant, greaatt! I'm still due December 23rd so I'm uber excited about that, too. December seems so far away when you're having a heat wave in July!
I didn't find out the sex in the ultrasound room. I had her put the answer in an envelope so I could find out with Josh at home. I rush home because I HAVE to know. I mean, Carter's is having a baby sale and I need to know, right? I hand him his picture and I take mine and we flip the pictures! IT'S A GIRL! I'm so freakin' excited over that. I would have been happy over another boy but it's a girl. How did I get so lucky to have one of each? Josh is over the moon as well. He's finally starting to pay the right attention to my very much so expanding belly, and he's saying, "Our daughter." Just like he did with Zai when we found out. Now it's the hard part... Naming the child. We fought over Zai's name even in the birthing room before he was here. Now I have to do that all over again. I'd rather go through childbirth five times over and just be handed the perfect name for her. What am I going to do now?
I have millions of names picked out. So many it sucks because I only have four months to narrow them down. This is my daughter's name for gosh sakes... I guess when December comes we'll know for sure? I'm starving and my stomach is finally starting to settle down. I woke up with a belly-ache and I just took it easy. Gonna go out to my mom's for some stuffed peppers in a few minutes so I should be getting ready. I love stuffed peppers!
Current Mood:  excited Current Music: Wow Wow Wubzy! July 16th, 200810:14 pm: 4 months
On Tuesday I turned 17 weeks pregnanat with my second child. I'm excited and nervous all at once. Wow... I haven't been on here in forever and I wanted so much to blog this pregnancy more so than I did with Zai's.
So I've only gained about five pounds so far which is really good considering I gained like thirty-five pounds with Zai and had a hard time working it off. I did the ring and needle test like a bunch of times trying to guess the gender of the baby and they all said girl. Guess we'll find out at the BIG ultrasound on Monday. I wanted to do something special for my family to tell then what the baby is but I have no idea. Was just going to place a single dot of color on a white onsie and have them find it but each one of them are impatient and would flip out and throw the onesie down. Maybe I should just send my dad and e-mail with "It's a..." on it. And then put, "Call to find out!" at the bottom hehe. That'd funk with them loads!
Zai is such a boog lately. He's been using these 'stall' tactics during bedtime where he'll go, "I'm hungry, thirsty, ect..." All night so he doesn't have to go to bed. I make sure he's fed, clean, doesn't have to pee and has a drink before putting him to bed so I KNOW he's just stalling. Now he's into this funk where he'll scream bloody murder for about two hours straight until his voice goes away because he wants daddy, he wants to watch TV, or he's scared of monsters. Even though I'm in the bed beside him. We're not co-sleeping with the little girlie or little guy in my abdomen when he/she is here.
Which reminds me! I bought crib bedding on Ebay for 40 bucks with shipping included! Oh gosh it's so pretty. It's gold with baby blue oriental emboridery on silk. It's gorgeous and I've never seen anything like it. Now I just need a crib to put it in! Which I should buy in September when I find one I actually like. I've never shopped for cribs before. Zai had a pack-n-play that we used. Not a crib! I want the convertible one that changes into a toddler bed as well. Zai needs his own bed! I'm sick of sharing the queen with him at night while he tosses, turns and kicks me off the bed. No help to our retarded dalmation, Couper, either!
My choice in gender for this kid? Not that I have a choice in the matter but I'd just love a healthy baby. Boy or girl, I'd take them! I'd love for Zai to have a little brother, he'd make an awesome big brother but I'd also love to have a daughter. The best of both worlds, I'm calling it. I honestly don't care. I wouldn't be upset with either gender. Just a new beginning and another little one to raise. I'm already feeling him/her kick and it's awesome. It's been a bunch here in the past few days, nothing serious to where it hurts like Zai's would but it's really little flutters and jabs and all under my navel. I'm really excited. Josh isn't excited but he's coming around to the idea there's really another on the way. No idea if he'll be there for the ultrasound or not but either or I def will!! Maybe I should tell everyone the baby didn't let me see their parts. Just so that everyone is interested, "What are you having?" And I just shrug my shoulders. That'd be kinda weird!
It's bath time for Zai so I better go. I have laundry to do while he's taking a bath so yay me... Then probabaly off to finish my romance novel in bed while he watches TV on the big screen beside me. Hopefully that'll wind him down. And just for later when I read up on this two years down the road. I've been craving things I've never thought I would! About a month ago I had a horrible craving for anything Spearmint. Only Spearmint Tic-Tacs would help that craving and I couldn't find them anywhere! Now I want sour things, especially lemons and pickle juice. A1 sauce is a must as if ketchup on just about everything. I've never been so hungry in my life. I also can't look at Cottage Cheese or Spinach Salad with banana peppers.
Night! Current Mood:  exhausted Current Music: Lillt Bill... May 4th, 200808:04 pm: In General
In general life sucks right now. Allow me to elaborate.
1 - I'm having 'morning' sickness all day long and nothing is helping. Not votmiting just the uncomfortable waves of sickness that last all the time and throwing up doesn't help but make them worse. All that with constant back pain and horrible fatigue to where I could fall down and sleep.
2 - Josh and his family are driving me bonkers and I want to end this now! Not my marriage but the fact he'll stick up for his family no matter what they do to me and in the end I'll end up being yelled at; called fucking retarded, told to go fuck myself and upon that the hatred of his family thrown in my face.
Here's where I begin to rant about the past days. Skip if needed.
I get word from my little sister on Wednesday night that Josh's little brother (13) told my sisters best-friend who is my 'other' little sister that Josh and I never should have got married because we fight too much, he hates me and that he wishes that I'd leave Josh's life forever. My sister tells me this and I talk to my 'other' little sister and she confirms it truthfully. I tell Josh. Thursday his little brother comes over and asks Josh to run down to the corner store to pick his mother up some cancer sticks. Josh asks his brother, "Did you say...." and the kid did not deny it. Josh asks why he said this and the kid replied, "I just did." Josh says then, "Well, we are together." And that's it! WTF? A baby tap is what he gave that kid when I would have given him a whomping! Here's a slap on the wrist and a sucker for your troubles is basically it.
We had just bought a Wii and Josh asks me ( I bought it ) if his brother can play with him. I'm an overly jealous person and I was doing laundry at the time so I think about it and right now I'm disliking this kid very much so I just say very nicely, "I think you should go home." He leaves quickly and no more than two minutes later Josh's mother calls and demands I apologize for making this kid cry. I say hell no and I didn't intentionally make him cry. So then she declares she hates me. I'm fine with that, who likes their mother-in-laws anyways? And then Josh goes down to her house ( We live a few hundred feet away from each other ) and he makes up this rule where I stay away from them and do my own thing and vice versa.
Today his little brother was down here and I said something about it and I automatically get jumped from Josh saying I am being childish and rude about all of this and to just let it go. WTF? Hells no, dude. Then he continues to defend his brother until no end and finally he goes to work with a single, "Go fuck yourself, fucking retard." thrown back at me before he takes off in MY car! Grrr, if I didn't believe divorce is a sin I would so end this. Petty and childish maybe but I can't deal with this. He's always defended his family and placed me on the oposing side to face the heat. I'm sick of this. I need to figure something out and quick to retaliate. I have called war on them and I highly dislike if not hate most of his family save his sister. I think she now hates me as well because she thinks of their brother as her son. Oh well, their loss.
3 - I have an Athropology exam tomorrow and I am so not prepared and can not focus on the material for the life of me or my unborn child. I can say that now! Yay!
I have an OB/GYN appointment the 28th of this month. Hopefully updating afterwards on that. Losts of blood loss I'm proposing. They always deplet me of my blood when I go anywhere close to a hospital. Hoping for a boy this time around, no relevance to what I typed before but it was random and I deemed it worthy to type.
Done ranting and impatiently waiting for Desperate Housewives to come on so I can obsess over their lives instead of mine.
Planted two lilac bushes in the front yard today. They are pretty. No flowering yet but hopefully next summer they will. Next we are buying a flowering tree like we are seeing everywhere in our side yard. Give Couper something pretty to sleep under when tied outside. Current Mood:  frustrated Current Music: Fan , in laws, josh, lilac, marriage, ob/gyn, war
March 3rd, 200801:35 am:
I guess it's been awhile? Yeah, it has.
We moved! Finally! We moved about four weeks ago now and it is awesome! Our own home and it is so much warmer than that stone house we were living in. I feel safer here.
We have a new member of our family. His name is Couper Quade-Fox and he's a full blooded Liver Dalmation with the most startling green eyes you'll ever see. We gained Coup back in January as an eight week old puppy. He's now almost four months old and a hellion to the max.
Leaum, Maddy and Sedy were declawed at the end of January and just got their first bath in the new house and since they had their surgery on Saturday and Leaum was the worst!
Zai is almost three years old now. We've been wanting another baby and trying for the last month or so but nothing has happened so far. We have names picked out and everything but Josh doesn't really want another one right now with only one income. He wants to wait a few more months to get caught up on everything so we can build a nursery in the spare bed-room.
Josh has been working at AutoZone Warehouse now for over a year and he's making a fairly decent pay put for a family of three plus six animals it is hard to save up money and sometimes hard to put food on the table. My parents help and even buy us food but recently my father lost his job due to another freaking lay-off. We always put food on the table it's just budgeting the money is a little hard when you've never had to worry about bills like we have now, before.
Winter Quarter at OUZ is almost over and I already have my sched for Spring Quarter. I'm so excited. Sunday was beautiful out and I'm excited about Monday, or today, because it's going to be warm and awesome! We washed the Eclipse yesterday and I cleaned out all the trash from Josh and Zai. Never me, I'm an angel in my red beast! I should porbably give some pictures of my car on here, and of Zai and Couper as well!
Zai is awake still and watching Oobi or something. He's obsessed and tells me so. He recently wrote all over my bedroom walls with a crayon. And he actually made an octopus, pig and a sad face on the walls. He's three... There should be no artistic abilities in his hands yet! He loves to watch Noggin, it's a preschool channel, and it sucks because he won't even play with his new toys!
I don't know if the links will work but it's worth a try.
Couper - http://a145.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/l_92fc777d4655f05022e2a87e5164dc08.jpg
Zailor - http://a181.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/123/l_3080b80d069add420eda28ab0bde35f4.jpg
Eclipse - http://a618.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/81/l_8d86aa24858e4fdafbb943371bf2e889.jpg
Zai and I - http://a323.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/4/l_94f38c1895d53bb7f8dd55369a1428ca.jpg
Tags: dalmation, eclipse, home, ouz, work
November 17th, 200702:24 pm:
So this morning Josh, Zai and I were supposed to go work out at the Field House... Didn't happen. Stayed up till four in the morning watching XXX and Zai just wouldn't go to sleep. He's been doing that lately and it's horrible because I lose sleep and so do the cats!
I knew I wouldn't write in this for a few months, I knew it! It's two-thirty in the afternoon and Josh and Zai still aren't up. They sleep so damn much it's horrible! So last night was a hectic one. The night before I bathed Lukas, my precious little kitten who just sits in the bath tub and allows me to drown him if I so wished. (I never would, he is my baby!). But last night I bathed the last four kittens of mine... HELL! Wyatt was the worst and I started off with him. Nothing but meowing and attempting to claw at me and he actually bit me a few times. Wyatt was recently declawed so I got lucky there.
Next was Leaum and he was sweet and just stared at me and laid down in the water for me to bathe him. And then was Sedryk, my orange spitfire, he was actually alright other than a few hisses and all. Mavyrik was last and my little black butterball was perfect. Normally Maddle-Daddles is horrible and puts up a huge fight but he knew he'd get a treat and so he just stood there patiently. Hopefully no more nasty fleas.
So the house trailer we almost bought for 3500$ isn't the one we picked. Bunch of legal matters with that one. We went through a repo place and brought one that was smaller, needed little to no work and cost more money. We bought a 1999 14x70 and are attempting to move it just a few blocks from the rented house we are in now. Fun.. Fun..
Zai is finally awake and my peaceful alone time has gone out the cold door.
Tchao! Tags: bath, cats, children
September 3rd, 200702:32 pm: My plate is full.
So... Title pretty much explains my life right now. Josh and I moved out of my parent's and are now renting a piece of shit house for 450 a month plus utilities and it sucks because we live right in the middle of a drug street and our son can't go outside to play in fear of the stray bullets.
Josh and I are in the process of buying our own home for thirty-five hundred. A house-trailer. Anything to get away from that drug street. It's a 16x80 and we are having a hard time finding some one to move it and everytime we get one step further to living in it something else goes wrong like the people have a lean, or probate court comes up or no axles.
I start my second year at OUZ tomorrow. My classes are as this...
Monday, Wednesday - 1:10-3:00 is Environmental Geology (215)
Tuesday, Thursday - 10:10-12:00 is Literature (Eng 200)
5:30-7:20 is French (FR 111)
Friday - Tutoring Geology 101.
Online Class - Psy 101.
I have a few busy months in front of me. And yesterday I just learnt that my direct deposit didn't go through for my financial aid to get here on time.
Zai is growing more and more every day. He's almost two point five years and already knows so many words and talks in complete sentences. It's only one problem. He likes to be abusive. Biting, kicking, screaming, punching.. All the above.
Enough rambling, probably be a few more months until I post once again.
Current Mood:  disappointed July 4th, 200704:18 pm: A long wait...
Alright so... I'm back on livejournal now, hehe. I had my bout with Xanga, Myspace and Facebook. So, I started to read A Lily Story again because I just found it and I am loving it but right now my laptop won't access the page and I'm pouting over it. Zailor just turned two and Josh and I finally moved out into our own home, we're offically renters now, and it sucks. My four babies aren't doing too well out there and were not even supposed to have them there.
Lukas and Wyatt just turned a year old and for some reason Wyatt hasn't come back home for two days now, he's romaing. And my two month olds Mavryk and Sedryk are too young to know what hit them. Seddy is hurt right now, he went outside this morning and a stray cat beat him up, he's sitting beside me and we don't know what is wrong with him, I'm very worried over my little blonde butterball.
Just to let everyone who reads this know.. The four babies I talk about are felines. Zailor is my only real child and I don't plan on having more anytime soon.
I'm attending OUZ for languages and I'm now a Sophomore in College, I'm excited for the fall, I begin on French. Who all is excited for the new Harry Potter book? I sure am! Current Mood:  curious September 21st, 200510:15 pm: The game
Wow, Maysville vrs. West M game for 7/8th graders was pretty intresting. Too bad Josh missed out on it. Tara Hollingshead was running her mouth again about Dawn. Dawn went off and I can honestly say that I'm very proud of my little sister. I know she wasn't all talk, no one ever is in my family, but, she surprised me and I'm very happy.
If ANYONE wants to ruin my little sister's cheerleading spot or even wants to do or hurt her in any way, You'll have me at your door soon. I don't care if you're scared or not. Those I left comments to are next in line. Especially Tara and Brittany. You're Mine. Dawn had it at the game, and I know Tara started it.
On to something more exciting. Zai now sits up on his own, he's talking more and can grab at objects easily now. It's very cute. I'm not working much at Creno's, though Josh is getting a few hours at DQ. He might get a job at Bargain Box soon. I'll be taking the MCSE in the summer, getting my job then I'm going to try and talk him into moving up to Canada with me. Clean with no health costs.
September 7th, 200504:30 pm: Finally, an update...
Started CBI, it's okay. Josh and I got out at 9:00 a.m. That was great. Saw Lyndsee, she looks awesome for being eight months along. She's all baby, she really hasen't gained anything. Josh was like, "Do you know how skinny she'll be after this is all over?" I was like, "Wish I could've been like that." I lost most of it, I'm back down, but not down enough to where I feel fine.
I might be going over to Lyndsee's tonight with Zailor after Dawn's game, that'll be great. Lynds needs to see Zai before Ry comes. Talking to Lynds on messenger right now. She's great, her little man is going to be adorable.
Dawn's first game is tonight. I'm going to go watch her around 5:30-6:00. It'll be okay I guess. My baby sister is all growing up and cheering. It's adorable! Gonna go give myself a bath and then Zai so then I can dress him for the game and then leave. Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: The Punisher Game behind me. *Josh* August 28th, 200511:19 pm:
Working at Creno's now. Sometimes I miss Domino's a lot. I work Monday and Friday this week, hoping to get more hours. I have many bills to pay and many toys to buy.
Today Josh and I took Zai to Wal-Mart and put 300 dollars worth of clothes for later days in layaway for Zai. He was cranky at first, but then settled down quickly. Sometimes I can't wait to have more, just the thought of being pregnant again is exciting but I know it won't happen for another four-five years down the road.
Zai turns 3 months tomorrow, the 29th. GREAT! Soon he'll be off to preschool. I really can't wait, no more bottles.
School is okay, not hard and not easy. I wish I had finished my credit at FoxFire so I wouldn't have to had go back.
I'll be taking more pictures of Zailor here soon. He's changed so much from those past pictures I've taken. He's fat. He weighs 14 lbs now and is 24.5 inches tall. And, he's really annoying right now because he won't go to bed. He keeps going to sleep for like fifteen minutes, then waking up screaming. It's weird. I don't know if he's just too tired to sleep or if he's having nightmares. He HATES tummy time too. I can't put him on his tummy for nothing.
Yesterday, we lost his binky and he just wouldn't stop crying. We found it though, and he's still crying. Josh is in bed, I'm waiting to sleep. I get tonight to watch him so then Josh can sleep. Last night was supposed to be my night but Josh woke me up everytime Zailor woke up. I'm waking his ass up everytime tonight now. Paybacks are hell.
I don't want to say that Josh and I are really close but, we are to the point of hating to be away from eachother. I let him do whatever he wants though. I really don't care. I have more better things to worry about than him cheating on me. I trust him with everything.
God, I'm so tired. I'm going to try and sleep before Zailor wakes back up. Night. Current Mood: exhausted August 23rd, 200502:47 pm: School
Today was okay I guess. Not much different than all of those other years I had to go to school. Really good thing is that Josh and I got out early, and will be getting out early everyday. Today was kinda intresting too. Here's how it went...
Homeroom - I had Zirke for homeroom this year. That's gonna suck. Haylie, Molly and Amber are in there with me, they were hilarious this morning. Got everything I needed in there I guess.
Choir - Choir was filled with Freshman. In Zirke's room I filled out a paper to get out of choir though. Then, after the bell rang I met up with Julie and she told me something about Dawn that I personally got pissed off about. So, hears a shout-out.
Tara Hollingshead, you little skanky bitch. I told you if you talk about Dawn again that's it. I'm only 17, and now your ass is mine. If you weren't the one who said it then fine, doesn't matter to me. You do nothing but cause Dawn trouble. Now I get to break your face.
French II - Such an easy class. Everyone from my old class is in this one. Josh will be added shortly. We already saved him a spot. Got a new handbook, it'll be fun I think.
Government II - With Ashlie, Shaila, Molly and Amber. Huge class though of preps. Funny though because Wickham is funny.
Computer Tech - Boring.
Keyboarding - Kelly is in that class with me. It'll be great.
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Not a very eventful day I guess. I slept when I came home after Josh and I got Zai's pictures, I'll be putting one or two up here soon I guess. They are adorable. I slept with Zai on my chest. Creno's called and I go into work tomorrow at 5. Kaylonda is my trainer. Then I have work the rest of the weekend. I think Creno's will be great. I can do anything for a pizza place. I know everything from Domino's. That's it I guess, I'm too tired for anything else. Current Mood: drained August 20th, 200509:45 am: My week...
Sunday - Went to the fair with Dawn, Mom and Josh. It was okay I guess. Not many people there, which I liked, so I got to ride rides with Josh.
Monday - Went to the fair again. This time with Dawn and we met up with Shayne. I introduced him to a couple people in his grade. It was really fun.
Tuesday - Went to the fair once again. I almost lived there this week. Josh and I were at the fair all night.
Wednesday - Um... Fair. That's when I came to pick up Zai and Tammy had him almost suffocating in pillows, we'll see if she gets him in awhile.
Thursday - Had work (5-10) It was okay I guess. Heather and I went outside and were picking up trash for Richie. He didn't ask us to but we were bored.
Friday - Went to the fair. Seen this West M child who just kept staring at me. I hate the West M 8th graders. They are all tough and mouths when you're not there, when you are they are very quiet. I was half tempted to go up and say, "You have moles." But Josh wouldn't let me. Though I tried ha. Really though, she has moles and pimples all over her face and she tries to be white so bad she looks grey.
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Today I think I'm just going to be with my little family. Maybe ride the 4-wheeler awhile. Go in to work at 6, get off early go to the fair for the Truck-pulls with Josh. Come home and go to bed. Sounds great to me.
I quit Domino's last night too. Bill seemed upset but, I don't care. I need something new. I'm starting at Creno's here in a few days. Sunday is my last night at Domino's. I'm excited about Creno's. Atleast I know people that work there and I've heard the boss's aren't dicks like Bill was. Oh and, Josh and I dyed our hair together. He wouldn't let me do it unless he did it too. We are black-heads now. Sounds sick but, we did it. Our hair is more blue than anything though. I like it.
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My Schedule for this year
1 - Choir (Gonna get it switched for studyhall so I can be an aide again.)
2 - French 2
3 - Gov't 2
4 - (A) Computer Tech
(B) Internet/Web Page Design
5 - Keyboarding and Appliances 1
6 - Early Release.
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Josh's Schedule
1 - Gov't
2 - Concets of Science. (Getting switched for either CGI2 or French 2)
3 - Social Studies 1 (His credits from Utica didn't transfer.)
4 - Algebra 2
5 - English 12
6 - Early Release.
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For his early release he's going to work for DQ for a bit. For mine I'm going to come home and watch Zai for awhile. That boy found his feet, is saying 'Ma' and is only 2.5 months. He'll be three months this 29th. I love him so much. We took him to the fair a couple of times. It's just with so many dirty people being there it sucked because I was paranoid. Zai only woke up once last night. Went to bed around 12. Woke up at six. He's getting better. Thank god. Gonna go now, Zai keeps waking up and I'm sleepy again. Current Mood:  tired August 7th, 200501:02 am:
I haven't updated in forever. Thanks for all of the comments, I don't have much time to read and respond back though. I'm going to Maysville to finish my last year off. Already went school shopping.
Zai is turning ten weeks Sunday. Great, soon he'll be walking and it'll be time for another baby. My aunt is pregnant. I'm so excited for her. I really hope she has a girl though, I don't know why. I just think that she'd be very beautiful. A boy would be too handsome for his own good. Oh god, I'm so excited for my aunt, I know what she'll be going through and I know she'll love every bit of it. I can't wait to buy things for my new baby cousin.
Just recently we bought Zai his first Baby Einstien music CD (Baby Neptune) and his first Baby Einstien DVD (Baby Beethoven). He fell asleep on them both, so I guess that's good. But then again it isn't because I want him to learn the music and words, not sleep to it! I'm hoping to buy them all for him. That's defiantly what I'm getting Shelly's baby.
Zai right now is sleeping in his swing, Josh is behind me playing his Gameboy Advance. Josh lives here now, I love it. My own little family under one roof. Hopefully we can get our own place within the next year. Current Mood:  content Current Music: Fan in the background July 12th, 200511:20 am: Zailor
Zailor is six weeks old now and I have my six week checkup with Dr. Swan... I'm nervous, I don't want her to tell me anything wrong about my body. I might leave a tag up here of Zai at the end I think. He's so handsome. I told Josh I want three children. Two boys and one girl. He said that if the next one is a girl he's getting fixed. That's sad!
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I have school Monday-Thursday for a couple of weeks. I'm thinking about finishing Gov't and then going back to Maysville for half-days and just taking a few extra classes. I want to go back to work too. But, I can only work Fri-Sun because of school. I have no time for myself with school and work now. Zai is easy to handle I guess. I have help anywhere I go. It's just that damn school and work. I don't know why I just can't become a stay-home mother. Oh well... Current Mood:  nervous June 29th, 200503:37 pm: One Month
I'm bored right now. Zailor is beside me sleeping in this vibrating chair thing. He's a month old now, and he's such a handful. Really, wait to have children people. I love him to death and back though. He's so handsome, he looks just like his daddy. His eyes are so blue, and he has a lot of hair on his head, will have to be cutting it shortly if it keeps growing. I should get pictures up of him soon enough. Maybe even some of Josh and me during labor. Josh asked me to marry him after Zailor was born. But, I'm still slightly swollen from pregnancy and the rings won't fit, it sucks. So, we are just going to get them sized so that they fit even with the swollen-ness.
Last night was my third night alone with Zailor. Normally Josh stays here and helps me with him but his father made him stay home with his brother. Josh and I argued a lot over the fact that I don't want his family, I just want him. But, I'll take his family if it means I get him. I just don't like them one bit. They think they are better than everyone else.
Well, not much to say. I can fit in my old clothes now but I still feel fat. I want another baby in about 5-10 years now. Zai is just so much to handle. He loves to whine and whimper. He smiles and is begining to laugh now. Had to switch his formula a week or two ago because it wasn't agreeing with him. He might have a little bit of Colic at night. But, I think he's a good baby for the most part.
Going to go now, I have work to be doing. Current Mood: tired Current Music: BoA - Love Hurts - Korean June 2nd, 200510:28 pm: Zailor's Birth
Introducing Zailor Jay Valentine
Saturday night around 8 p.m. my family and I went out to eat at Ponderosa. I stuffed myself and lets just say that my family got our moneys worth back. As I was eating my steak and french fries I kept getting horrible back pains. I mean they were constant pains that hurt even when I took a breath. We go home and everyone goes to bed but mom and I. I'm complaining a bit about my back hurting, I even tell Josh about it. My back hurt before when I was pregnant, but not this bad. It was like a back spasm but just 100 times worse. I lay on a heat pad for a bit but they just get worse. Around 11 I go and take a hot bath thinking that'll make it go away. It doesn't, so I lay back down on the heat pad and it makes my back go numb so then I don't feel it as much. Then I tell mom again and finally we call my OB Doctor (Swan) and she says to go ahead to the hospital but I'll most likely be discharged and sent home that night. So I call Josh and him and his little brother fly here to my house like a bat out of hell.
We get to the hospital, they take me up to this room and too many people from my family are there and I felt so uncomfortable because of my constant back pains. I wasn't breathing hard or anything, I was just taking in slow, deep breaths. An hour after we had got there our family friends Stephanie and Eric Robinson arrived because she thought she was going into labor. They were sent home due to false labor, which she had her baby girl last night at 1. I wait for Sawn to come around 6-7 in the morning. She decided to induce me. It was sooo disgusting. I remember Ewwing a lot and her trying to calm me down. Josh was there the entire time and he was such a big help.
They induce me, I still have no medication or anything because I still think that my pain is bearable enough to not get anything. Just to speed this up. Around 11:45 in the morning on Sunday they gave me my first dose of medication which was Nabon or something that'll just make me drowsie enough to sleep and take that top part off of my contractions. Which, by the way I was having NO stomach pains at all and I still thought that it wasn't labor but they had already induced me. They gave me the medicine and then an hour later my pains got worse from the potosin then I gave in and asked for the epidural. Which I didn't feel and the I.V. hurt worse than anything other than my back pains. I felt nothing but pressure after that and as soon as they gave me the epidural no more than ten minutes and I was fully ready to give birth to Zailor. I was dialated 10 very quick and he was out very soon.
Josh cried before, during and after Zailor's birth. I had Josh, my mom and dad in the birthing room with me and I was very comfortable with them there. They helped me so much and I really don't know what I would have done without them. I never yelled at any of them though. I told Josh to shutup once because he kept telling me to breathe. I forgot how to breathe because of the medication, so I was put on oxygen.
After he was born everyone left and went home to rest. Josh and I stayed in our birthing room for a bit while Zailor was in the nursery getting cleaned and all. I had to pee very bad and Josh was out like a light on the couch beside me. I didn't have my legs working yet and I threw everything I could at him to wake him up but nothing would wake him up. I even threw my crackers at him. I finally got him up and I told him I had to pee and to help me go pee. He walks out of the room and brings back two sheets, set them on my bed and then went back to sleep. I was pissed and had to have a nurse help me. That's the most memorable moment for me.
Okay some facts you're dying to know about our son.
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Time of Birth - 1:25 p.m.
Day of Birth - Sunday, May 29, 2005
Weight - 6 lbs. 3 oz.
Height - 19 1/2 in.
Hair Color - Light Brown
Eye Color - Dark Blue like Josh's
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I'll put pictures up here soon I think. Maybe a link to some. We took many good pictures and Josh's and I's stay at the hospital after he was born was a lot of fun. I loved it and miss it bunches. Josh, Zailor and I bonded very well. I really miss the room. I still have a belly, not much but it's apparent I have one. I'm not sore anywhere and I feel like my normal self. I miss being pregnant a lot and I'm hoping to be pregnant again in another 5 years at the most, three years would be nice though. Josh misses me being pregnant too. Though he says he loves my flubber too. Zailor is sooo cute. I'm getting less than three hours of a sleep in a 24 hour time period and I'm paranoid something is going to happen to him if I'm not watching him constantly. Okay, that's enough writing. If you have questions just ask me and I'll tell you either on here or via e-mail. Current Mood: calm Current Music: None May 22nd, 200509:52 pm:
Wow, I haven't been on here for awhile. Well, I'm 36 weeks pregnant now. Before I'm done with being pregnant I want to rub up against my aunt, because it's a superstition or something that if you are pregnant and if you touch someone then their chances of getting pregnant go up higher.
Updates on Baby
Name - Zailor Jay (Jai) Valentine
Sex - Male
Due Date - June 16, 2005 (Maybe even sooner if lucky.)
Current Baby Position - Head First!
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I'm excited and happy about him coming. We are almost ready for him though, and he might come a lot sooner than expected due to the fact that Dr. Swan is going on vacation during my due date week so she might induce me sooner than expected. Or I could go tomorrow since it'll be a full moon. All Josh and I and mom need to do is wash the baby clothes and some of our clothes in Dreft so then Zailor doesn't break out and rash. And then Josh and I need to prepare a hospital bag for when we stay at the hospital.
I'm having him at Bethesda(sp) because Good Sam doesn't deliver babies anymore. I have everything I need but of course I'll run out of pampers and baby lotion and whatever else I need for him that's the main thing. All of us are excited. I'm still working at Domino's too, even now. It's hard standing for 5 hours at a time and running everywhere with my head cut off.
I can't wait till tomorrow. Ashlie comes back to school. I miss her lots. Josh is at work right now, won't get off for another hour or so.
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Monday - Lamaze
Tuesday - Work (6-8)
Wednesday - School (5-8)
Thursday - Doctor's Appointment (1:30), Maybe School (5-8)
Friday - Work (4-9)
Saturday - Work (6-10)
Sunday - Relaxing Day
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I think that's enough writing for today. Not much else I can think about. Okay, there is but I don't feel like typing anymore.
I love Joshua Thomas Valentine
April 24th, 200512:40 pm: Sunday... Yuck.
I feel horrible today. My back hurts a lot, and I couldn't sleep any last night without my back hurting or me having to go pee at night. This sucks, kinda. We have a name but we can't voice it too much because that's what we did with the other names and now we hate them from hearing them too much and people commenting about them.
My babyshower (April 23) was canceled due to a very nasty conflict from my mother to my grandmother and back and forth. So that's off. I still have Josh's family's babyshower left.
This morning was bad too! I woke up at all hours, and then finally stayed up at 8 a.m.. I called Josh, then both of us went back to bed after a minute of talking. I told him I'd call him back. Nope, that didn't happen and he called me back like three times. And I think he was mad because I didn't answer any of them. I was asleep (deep) and my fan was on high and my door halfway shut, yup, I heard that phone from a mile away... Not really. He's at the hospital with his grandmother and I won't get to talk to him until after 11 tonight because I work dayshift today and he works nightshift. And I'm going to work in about half an hour. That's kinda it for today... I wanna go lay down before work.
No matter how mad you make me in the morning Josh, I still love you even more. Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: Washer in the background
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